Is it really me?

The Fool

I used to joke about this being my card: hahaha. I was naive enough to think that I could move to a new city and start over. Be a new “me” and leave all my baggage behind. I managed it for about a year, and then the cracks started to appear – or should I say crackpots. People, things from your past, stuff, it turns out you can’t keep it under your bed or in a storage unit for very long. It grows like a fungus, it ticks like a bomb, it breeds like a bunny…well, you get what I mean. Your baggage can never be left behind, especially when you really want to lose it.

My mother taught me Tarot when I was small, and since this is Card 0, it’s the first one in the deck. I always thought that it would be great to be the Fool – he looks like he’s going on an adventure with his dog, he’s got his lunch tied up on a stick, and he’s got those cute yellow boots. But of course Mother always had to point out that the Fool had his eyes shut and was about to step off a cliff.

How do you know that? I’d argue. Maybe he was going to stop there for lunch. She would shake her head and say that maybe I was going to be a fool, after all. She may have been a little bit right. The second year of my “New Life” in the city has turned into a fool’s paradise. If I’m not jumping off a mountain, I’m stepping in a pile of something warm and squishy.

But, you know, I’m having much more fun now. So it’s worth uncorking the genie’s bottle, opening Miss Pandora’s box, or just paying attention to what’s under the bed. Give it a whirl. (You can read all about my ‘coming out’ year in “Embracing the Fool,” click on the title to see the book.)


New Cards, New Perspective?

Two of Cups

Someone recently gave me a new set of Tarot Cards. Now, I’m pretty adamant about using the standard Rider-Waite deck that has existed for most of the 20th century. However, I decided to pull today’s card from the new deck, which is called The Golden Tarot, with illustrations by Melissa Launay. I included a shot of the back of the card here, which is also very striking.

The card of the day is the Two of Cups. In the Golden Tarot, the image is very straightforward (as it is for all the Cups): there are two elaborate cups on a simple blue background. If I had drawn from my older deck, the man and woman toasting each other with the large cups would instantly clue you in to the romantic message expressed by this card.  Whether it’s about an existing love or one soon to occur, or a business partnership, this card is an affirmation that all is well in that relationship. There is and will continue to be mutual harmony in this relationship, so make a toast and drink up!

Showing the Cat’s Claws

Cats claw

This is an easy and quick reading that I usually do if I want the answer to a specific question. So, today I thought, what’s going to happen with my job? I know I’ve been taking a lot of time off, but I also know that my students really enjoy my classes and I will be very productive once my life settles down a little (famous last words, eh?).

1. “What am I holding onto?” The first card is The Star, which is a really excellent card no matter where it appears in a spread. Because of all the stars in the sky, the card is considered a celestial or navigation card. It’s not going to give direction, merely point out that I already know what I want and how to get it…so follow the stars! It’s possible that this card is telling me that I have too many stars in my eyes and I need to come down to earth a little, but let’s see what the other cards have to say.

2. The next card, the Queen of Wands, is here to answer “What can I do to let it go?” The Queen of Wands is a very confident woman, sure of her powers and attractiveness, and confident about all aspects of her life. There may be someone who is trying to stop me from using my powers, and that individual is the one I must let go – or else she will hold me back for the rest of my life. Boy, do I know who that is…my so-called mother-in-law (you can learn scads of stuff about her in “Freeing the Magician”).

3. So obviously, the next question asks, “How can I take control again?” Who wouldn’t want to get back on track after messages that are tantalizingly good, except for one teensy-weensy thing. The 8 of Pentacles shows a hard working man finishing up a job. The message is straightforward: work hard, be your best self, and everything will be alright.

4. “What do I Need to Do to Move Forward?” The 9 of Pentacles is a wonderful card, and the woman in the card is advising me to take care and enjoy life, now that my work is done. Completing a job, doing it well, is the best way to gain satisfaction and stability. Or at least I hope so.

5. The final card: “How can I use this to help me?” It’s interesting to have three cards of the same suit in a five card reading; it’s also significant that they are Pentacles, which represent money and material success. So the focus on work is appropriate, and the message I’m getting is pretty simple, too. Just work hard, don’t do anything fancy, and maybe I’ll be able to keep my job. The 3 demonstrates that teamwork can be a helpful way to add more accomplishments, and I have to admit that’s something I have not done. (I’m not good at teams, don’t tell anyone.)

So, there you have it. Short (kinda) and sweet. We’ll do a longer one soon, I promise.

New Leaf with Another Ace

Ace of Pentacles

While Pentacles are associated with money and career, the Ace focuses on the opportunity to start something new…and find success. So, if your inclination is to change jobs or embark on a new business venture, and you draw this card in a spread, then your message is clear: go for it. All the resources you need will become available, and if you work hard, you will find success. But as with all the cards, you cannot sit back and wait for lightning to strike: you must do the work in order to garner the success. Trust your instincts, use your talents, and you can have everything you desire.

Next week, I’ll lay out a Celtic Cross spread and we’ll see what cards turn up!

All Tied Up?

8 of Swords

This week’s Tarot card is the Eight of Swords, and I chose it to go along with Frida’s state of bondage. If you observe the woman in this card, she is blindfolded, tied up, and surrounded by swords: a pretty dire situation. But your reader asks you to take a closer look: the woman is not tied to anything, such as a tree or a chair, and with a little wiggle, she can probably get out of those bindings; then, the blindfold can easily come off. And as for the swords, whose are they? By themselves, they can do no harm. So in reality, the woman is guarded by no one, and impeded by her own fear. She can get away, and perhaps even grab a sword for her own protection. Many of us find ourselves in situations from which we feel there is no escape, and yet, with a change in perspective, we may discover that we are not really stuck where we thought we were.

Feeling like you’re at a dead end in your job or relationship? Wiggle around a little, change your stance, and you may find that you are able to release whatever has been holding you back. If you get this card in a reading, know that it’s time to take off the blindfold and look in a new direction. Don’t wait for someone else to “rescue” you…Time to grow up and rescue yourself from whatever mess you have gotten into. Frida was stuck in her body, tormented by physical ailments, and she became a victim of the time in which she lived, unable to change her marriage or Mexican traditions. She poured her anguish into her art, and created works that are unique and expressive. One can only wonder what she would have been able to do as a healthy, free woman.

Believe me when I tell you that the bindings, the blindfold, even the swords are all representations of your own fears. Once you realize that, you can step away from them, and start to really live your life. Go on, take the first step.

Aces, Swords, and Honesty

Ace of SwordsGet ready to go into battle for justice! When you draw this card, you will be faced with some hard choices to make, and it’s time to take an honest look at yourself in the mirror. You can face any challenge and enjoy new opportunities – if you are open and honest about your goals and motivations. Letting go of past baggage and enmities is key to making good decisions, and when this card comes up in your spread, you have a great chance to make great leaps forward toward a successful future!


Today’s Tarot Reading

Queen of Wands

This is a great card for the woman wearing those flowery Fluevog shoes. The Queen of Wands gives a boost to a take-charge, ambitious woman, someone who knows what she wants and is determined to get it. Whether it’s a career, romantic, or even a political goal she has in mind, watch out, world: this woman has the energy, magnetism, and flair to make just about anything happen.

It’s also possible that someone drawing this card in a spread will meet someone who will act as a mentor or even as a new lover. Be ready! Be self-assured, and for heaven’s sake, be conscious of your goals. It’s time to go and get what you’ve been working so hard for. Even the black cat on the card has a little smile on his face… Time to make hay while the sun[flower] shines!